SOOOO. It's almost August. The month we were suppose to start the next round of IVF. We decided that even though the last round was hard - I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I left that one embryo untouched. So I wouldn't have to repeat a $600 test required by the FDA every 6 months the August/September cycle was the cycle I would need to be on. I've been mentally preparing myself to jump on the bandwagon and get it started....
And in early June i noticed a bulge on my stomach. I showed it to Todd and a few friends who all said I needed to get it checked out. Well I was frankly done with doctors and didn't want to make an appointment just for that. So a month later i casually brought it up at a routine doctors visit. I thought it could be a cyst from the fertility meds - The doc immediately had suspicions of a hernia (never even on my radar - even though one friend suspected that) and asked if I wanted to have a follow up CT scan. I decided that yes, for my piece of mind I would like to have the scan. He told me that a lot of times hernias can develop from incisions and it wouldn't be any big deal to wait till another surgery (c-section or something else) to have it repaired. I asked him what it involved and he suspected it was just some fat tissue that had broken through and they would just push it back in and sew it up - no big deal.
So I go into the CT thinking it's going to tell me I have a 'fat' hernia and I will live with it. Well naturally that wasn't the case. Of corse I have a hernia that involves more than fat. It's a part of my intestines (insert eye roll here). AND can not be left untreated. Oh yah and the only cure is surgery (insert huge annoyance here).
So here I sit. On the eve of my 11th or 12th surgery (I've seriously lost count now) hoping everything goes smoothly tomorrow and it is as 'routine' as a surgery I have can be.
I always have to look at the positive. Do I like having surgery - uh no. BUT i am alive and semi-well. Have a beautiful family - and am thankful I'm not pregnant right now dealing with this issue. I can only imagine the pain I would be going through.
So - I guess the answer to the long awaited question is yes, we will be trying the last embryo - And hopefully before the end of 2015 - BUT it's not going to be the timeline I had expected. I will wait until I am healthy and cleared by my doctors to proceed.
Good vibes in the morning please! :)
